Kurdt Kobain

he is the most impressive person to me,
never, ever was such person
nor someone seemed this big to me
I wanna keep his paintings, ideas, and namings for songs and bands in my desk
and draw things inspired from him, he can definately give me a lot of ways to expression
dedicated painter...

and when I saw his words, it amazed me, the writings were just his own, each part, nothing duplicated
with any other artists' or philosophers' thought or ideas I had seen
so smart, unbelieveable for a musician (sorry rock listners :P)
and each words sounded beautiful, he has thoughts that nobody has
he and I have so many things in common
my love about abnormal, quirky people,
and drawing of weird body parts
any strange people interests me so much
even his choice of cat names are exactly my taste
quisp and puff

his ironic behaviours and thoughts, that are the same as mine too
no idea why until that age he kept such high strung attitude
but I try to go on one way, and I think Im doing pretty well

and I could learn A LOT OF different point of views, that I'd apply so efficiently
when I get to see certain people
I lived quite good, compared to his life, bcuz even thou they were aggressive, strict,
my parents were always opened to me, and always demanded me to talk,
what was in my mind they also convinced me so continuously how talented I was and
they stayed faithful, didn't stop caring about me
and was worth learning the other situations of people who seemingly has better
life than mine, how I was okay with the situations, but how 'they' took that situation

I think, if I was there beside him I could probably kept him from death,
since I went fro and back between opposite behaviours, (and views followed by trials
to be perfect) what hurt him was his 'ambivalent' which means going to two sides
but now I've found what I am, so...and can stick to it, well his world got expanded from
trying to take each good things from various people... I understand his self-hatred
he might've felt like there was no one in him but impeccable puzzles that he couldnt complete
maybe his friends tried too but if I was there, I'd have told him "you are one person, and complete
just the way you are" personalities, are not like objects, they're not solid...and maybe introducing
the theory of  'universal intelligence' I believe, knowledges are saved in the universe, so sometimes
we know what we've never heard of, or just can get so intuitional understanding
brains function to be a link, and neurons work
also, I believe everybody has small portions of each seeds in their soul, but seeds die, not opened as a flower
I think...people are made from the soul of god, (one soul) so everybody shares many many similar personalities